It's 2008, the year all "1987er" turn 21. I am sure people are feeling the pinch of spenting on presents with all the 21st Birthday Celebration going around. January have not even come to the end and I have attended 4 birthday celebrations already. 

First up was Junyang! 

 

Then there was ZhongWei's 21st.

 

Followed by SiewMay!

 

Our classic "shocked" picture. 

(I don't know the rest of the guys in the picture. I'm being categorize as "secondary school friends" because that is when I knew Siewmay.)

And lastly, Yikying, the bamboo's Birthday party.

 

And of course, there was my "surprise" 21st Birthday and the reason why I am blogging now (other then the fact that I want to slack alittle. I'm cleaning my room you see) is to thank all my friends! I really appreciate the fact that you guys turned up on a weekday at such a faraway chalet even though you have to work or return to camp the next day and of course not forgetting all the presents. I would especially like to thank  Michelle, Geraldine, Yanqing and Zhenghong who spent so much time, effort and effort organising this birthday party for me, Joel for the beautiful cake he baked and the Juling for the very delicious and cute cupcakes. 

  

I really do not know what to say to these 4 people and I can only thank god for placing them in my life. I can not even remember how we all came together, it is quite amazing actually. Michelle and I have never been to the same school and I do not recall why I started talking to Zhenghong in the first place.The 5 of us just kind of fell into place. 

There are friends that are happy because I am happy; These are friends that shed tears because I am upset and frustrated about my future; These are friends that accept me for who I am. 

There past few years have been trying and difficult and I foresee many more testing years to come. I haven't been the best to you people and I apologise for all my moodiness, lost of temper and weird behaviours that you guys have to put up with. I can only ask for you guys to put up with me for the next couple of years. =) 

You guys are as important to me as my family and just know that I would never do anything to hurt you guys deliberately. 

Once again, Thank You.




(Clockwise)The decorations, the buffet spread, Joel's cheesecake and Juling's cupcakes!




(clockwise) Having fun playing Taboo, the rest(everyone except me and Zhenghong) enjoying the forfeit, Michelle feeling upset because the "cat" caught the "mouse", Party poppers!

It being my birthday, there is bound to be plenty of...

Man on man action and...




Lesbian Love.




(Clockwise) Syahril with the 5 of us, VS brothers, SAF Band peeps, MJCSBmates!



Priscilla, my primary school mate. 




We ended the night with some fun with sparklers. =) 

Also. a big "Thank You!" Sihui and SiewMay for coming down to Toa Payoh on my Birthday proper to celebrate my Birthday! 




I am so glad we continued our little "Birthday Trinity" 5 years after we first met. 

To many more years to come!



I realised something while blogging this entry...

I used to really wish that I could hand back in time to fix my "mistake" of joining MJC or wished that I did well enough to get into VJC. But now, I realise that if I was really given the chance to go back and change something, I would not do anything. I would still "choose" to screw up my english "O" levels and enter MJC because if I didn't, I wouldn't have met such a great bunch of people from MJCSB and SAF Bands(maybe I wouldn't be as fat as I was in other JC and go some combat unit or something?), most importantly, there might not even be "The five of us". The route thus far has been really really rough but I would not exchange it for a better life because of the great people I have around me. I really regret how stupid and immature I have been the past few years and how I screwed up "A" levels but I would still go through the same path, just to be with the people I am with now. I guess God put me through all the trouble just so I could have you people around me and I am glad he did. 

Although I am upset about not making it to a university and frustrated over the financial difficulties of entering SIM I really think I am in such a good place now. I tend to get blinded by the shadows casted by the challenges ahead that I don't appreciate the good things I have in life now. 

I must make good my life for myself, my family and also my friends. That's a promise to everyone I love. 

1 month has passed! I'm going to get my first pay of my entire life. Haha. 2007 is coming to a close soon and I hope 2008 would be a better year than this year. Probably going to blog about my new years resolution in a few days time and if iI have the time a birthday gift lists of expensive things or something. Haha. I can only remember one resolution I made last year which is to lose weight and pass IPPT. Guess I only fulfiled half of it. Tsk.

The Christmas gatherings at Joel's and Juling's was great. I miss all of you so so much. I wished I got more time to be with you guys because it is so uplifting and makes me happy. The food was great and the company was wonderful. Almost better the sex! Haha. I release I have a talent for being ugly thanks to Juling's Mac.

 

Jutapose 2 was better then I expected too. Well done Alumni and Band! The concert was a very close and cosy affair. Literally for me because we were at the first row. 

 

That's Meridians@Band, miss them loads (Rickson was acting like me and I was acting like WO Goh). Alumnis and Ms Sia! 

 
 

(clockwise) Ms Sia with the band. The SEVEN of us. The MIA Vincent Wang finally made a appearance. The girls have a Lee Hua Jewelry moment.

I figured the reason why I am feeling so miserable at work is because i am so jealous of my friends are meeting up, going for band and basically having fun without me! So I guess everything would be better after school starts and people start work. Can't wait. Muahahaha.

"没想起不是忘记, 没想起你是平静..." 

Just heard this part of the song from a Yanzi song. Quite aptly describles what I am going through and feeling now! Just that the "你" is not a person la.

Geraldine and YiMing's birthday is coming! 

Happy 20th Birthday Yiming! 



I feel bad for not being able to celebrate his birthday la.

And then there's the count down to 2008 and geraldine's birthday which I am so looking forward to because my birthday's next! HAHA!

I am not looking forward to the days that follow though because I know I'm going to be hit with a serious case of Post Holiday Blues. I can't go to work 5 day a week anymore!  

Week 3 flew pass just like that thanks to the holiday on Thursday!

 All is well except that the overtime thing is still not settled. Can't wait to put this behind me.

I am kinda jealous of Zhenhua's job now and I really really should be happy for him and I am. I am just envious that he gets overtime pay whereas I am still in this sticky uncomfirmed mess. Must change this mindset! I know I shouldn't be feeling this way at all and I know Zhenhua will read this and I AM HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! 

Hahaha.  And thanks for the "you know what" on Thursday! 

Just crossing my fingers.

2 more days to Christmas. Christmas service was okie, loved the cards segment. That was my highlight. It wasn't until Christmas service that it hit me that it has been a whole year. Mixed feeling of joy and regret. It has been a much better year but I know I haven't given my all in a number of things and one of them would be Church. I made some promises and I know I will follow through this year.

Speaking of which! I want a weighing machine for a christmas gift! I broke mine a few weeks back. And no, I did not step on it and destroyed it. I tripped on it and something came loose. Maybe I should take this as a sign not to be so weight conscious(I will get one after my pay if I don't get one anyway.) So hint hint! 

I don't know who I am hinting to since no one gets me Christmas gifts anyway. HAHAHA.

Not really in the mood to blog as you can clearly see from the lack of purpose and bad structuring, actually I am guilty of commiting the latter so often anyway that I am sure you guys got used to it. Probably except Joel, or should I address him as Mr Tan, soon to be GP tutor of MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE! So anyway, this is just an update. I know you don't really care but I know you you have nothing better to do on a Sunday anyway. I am nice enough to produce something to waste a few minutes of your life.  

Which reminds me, I had this encounter with this survey girl/woman/bitch outside TPY MRT after Christmas service. As usual, I already tried to look as engaged as I can listening to my music while walking out of the MRT station but she still came up to me.

"Excuse me, excuse me! How old are you?"

"Sorry I am not interested." *With a smile*

"But I just want to know how old are you!" (Right... -_-'')

"Sorry I am not interested." *Still smiling that fake smile of mine*

"Just want to know whether you are a student!"

"I am not interested in telling you then." 

Her face totally changed  to that of one that read "BITCH". Damn insulted. I already say I'm not interested a few times with a smile somemore but she won't back off and then she comes and give me that DAMNED look.
I am at wrong too la. I would never be go survey people if I had a choice. All the karma will just come and kick me in the ass.

But alas, forgive and forget since Christmas is coming. .

2 more days to Christmas and I have BIG plans for it! 

I am reformating my computer. 

It has been 2 weeks and I roughly know what what is my job scope. I think it involved alot of checking of documents and looking at computer screens. Not the world's most interesting job but I am glad that I have a job.

Speaking of which, there is some trouble with the contract on whether or not there is OT pay, hope it will be resolved properly soon. I am keeping my fingers cross and praying that everything will turn out fine. I hope I won't "lose" out because I really need the money.

Haven't talk much to anyone other then those in the same "department", which if i am not wrong consist of just 3 perms and 2 contract staff(us). Didn't really have much chance or opportunities to talk to anyone else. For example, I spent my whole day looking at a piece of paper and clicking away at the computer checking for errors in the system. It is rather "sian" but I think my counterpart got  thing worst. He was checking work documents word for word.

I heard the "Hey there Delilah" on radio and I was immediately brought back to the scene on the bus. We were on our way back to camp from Mindef and the whole bus was singing to that song's chorus. Thinking about Dean's mat accented singing just put a smile on my face. =)   

Now on to something which has been driving me nuts...

The past week's experience with Singnet has not been pleasant. The many visits caused by the wrong feeding of information by to me  the customers service people has left me really frustrated. The lack of seats at Hello! shops were testing my limits too. The long waiting time when I called to the customer service helpline was rather long and I could not spare too much time waiting because i had to work. I had to wait a good 20 minutes or more before the operator answered. I think they seriously have to rethink their whole customer service framework. 

The best part, I still missed the date line for the Ipod promotion even though I rushed and had the transfer of ownership done by tuesday.

I wanted to sell that off to save some extra cash. That is at least $400 gone. Thinking about it makes me sick.

The operator say that I may still be able to get the promotion and that they will get back to me but I do not have much faith in them seeing how well they have serviced me the past week or so.
 
And you know what is ironic?

The Singtel building is right across the street from Great Eastern.

Guess I need time to "let go" and not feel frustrated by this.

Ever want something so bad that you no longer care about anything else. Even if you are sick, unhappy or tired. It all wouldn't matter as long as you reach your goal.The determination will probably see you through, but at what expends? You become so engaged you become apethetic even to your friends and family. I feel like there is a part of me becoming like this. It is like  I am taking a drug that dulls pain. It helps me go on but it also dulls everything else, Things that used to matter doesn't seem as important now. It is good that I no longer seek and lust after materialistic wants as much but I also no longer care as much about feelings of others as well. I know I should not give in but I am too tired and I don't care enough to swim against the current and fight to make things right anymore.

So I am drifting away.

 I only had ONE MISERABLE PICTURE for the half marathon and I looked fat, stupid and butch like.



Wondering why I was in such a weird position?

Well you see the divider beside me? I jumped over it into the full marathon lane thinking I was in the wrong line when I was actually on the correct line. Too shagged or plain classic Weekiat, I can't decide.

Feel free to get this for me as a Christmas gift. I swear I will smack you silly.

GERALDINE's & ZHENGHONG'S





Nice Dress!



I wonder how Geraldine will look in this...
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Maybe she will look better with some accessories!



Maybe not.

Everyone! Remind me to tell you about the "UHHH!" Story when you see me in person. It involves Geraldine, a couple and yours truely. It AMUSING! 

Went about today all alone and it turned out quite well! Handed in my job applications to HDB, Tan Tock Seng and the Esplanade manually. I actually prefer handing in applications and resumes manually rather than online through email because it just makes me feel more secure, I think I am rather old fashion in this aspect. Then again, I also fear that the irresponsible people in the office might just chuck it somewhere and it will forever be forgotten or the documents get lost in some other department and get thrown away too. Guess I have some thrust issues. It is actually quite tiring to go to the different HR departments to ask for any opening but had no choice because their website did not offer anything useful. Anyway, it feels quite good to be actually "doing" something to get a job though I hope this don't drag on.

  

Ended the afternoon at Esplanade and decided to head to Subway for dinner. I really do not get the Subway people! It seems like they don't want customers to know about any offers that are going on. They don't tell you about it when you order and they put the promotion ad at some weird angle so you can't see it or at some obscure corner where you would not notice it. Good thing I was alert! Had cold cut trio, a large drink and 2 cookies for $4.90! I am a happy man! Haha. I am so going to whore it tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after... The bottom line is, keep your eyes open for promotions at Subway!

   

   

I finally had the luxury of slacking at a library, reading the day's news and just people watching. Totally enjoyed my evening there. I managed to read about 5 chapters of the "Mastering Excel" book and already, I learned quite a bit of stuff! Guess it is because I know nuts about Excel in the first place. I looked out at the Merlion Park and I realise that today was such a good time to go explore because I was all alone! I have always wanted to go there but did not have the chance to do it so. And so, after the library closed, I made my way there. 

My virgin Merlion Park experience!

  

The view was not too bad but as I say earlier, the construction going on was an eyesore! I have been living in Singapore for the last 20 years and this was my first time at the Merlion Park. Quite Pathetic ya? Haha. 

  

The view that was okie:

  

The not so sightly view: 

  

Merlion Galore!

  

  

  

Did you know there is a Starbucks underneath the bridge! I never knew la! I wonder who goes there.

  

Walked all the way Dhoby Ghaut MRT to take the train home!  Passed by VCH, Cityhall, Raffles city, SMU and and National Museum along the way. Only unemployed people can afford to do such things.

    

  

     

     

St Andrew's Cathedral somehow reminds me of Hogwarts and DisneyLand. Haha. Quite ironic for the former. The drive way was flooded with water because of the rain and it looked as if it was a pond. You can see the reflection of the church on the drive way! I was standing at the exit for quite some time taking photo then sudden I saw/realise this bright light shining which I did not notice before minutes ago, took me quite some time to realise it was a car heading out! Damn pai seh la!

I think I was very trigger happy today! I should go out alone more often.

It is disappointing and disheartening to go back to Alumni to see only 10 odd people when the concert is next week. It gets worst when you have as big a band room as Victoria's.  I felt so frustrated because I gave up meeting my friends because of my commitment to Alumni and turn up only to see the lousy turn out. 

I am very grateful to Victoria School, even more to the band because it has given me so much opportunities, so many bonds and friendships were forged within this four years and I return to Alumni not because of I love playing my clarinet or because I am so enthusiastic about band, but to meet up with old friends and "celebrate" our friendship. It is also my little way of showing my gratefulness to the school and the band. The measly amount of people who turned up just showed how uncommitted they are to the school and this is very upsetting for me because I always believed Victoria is indeed something more and Victorians will always be proud to be Victorians. Even if they are not committed to the Victoria School, is the reunion and chance of interaction with old pals not strong enough a pull for them to turn up?

I am very very sick of band. This year marks my 8th year in band. I am not sick of band because I'm bored of playing concert pieces. I am not sick of band because I bored of playing a clarinet. You need teamwork for the band to function, you need everyone to put in their effort and you have to rely on one and another to play and I am sick of being let down by others. There is no point a handful of people putting in their best while the rest don't care less. I am very sick of having to rely and letting others affect how well I perform. The last 2 years of community band playing and alumni bands have really left me jaded and I ask myself is it worth it to continue with band. I am not good enough to join a good band but I don't want to go into a half empty band room anymore. The only option to me seem to be to pick up another hobby. Something I can do by myself, something that the amount of effort I put in results in the effort I put out. Something that I don't have to rely or depend on others to achieve something. Heh. I think I am beginning to become more individualistic and wary and skeptical of bonds and friendships

I am very sorry for how I behaved this morning and I really shouldn't have taken it out with the guys who actually showed up just that I was really disappointed and frustrated! I was so glad that Kenneth, Patrick, Jeffrey and Edmund showed up and I hope more would show up next week for the concert itself. After practice, Kenneth and I were bored enough to look for our pictures on the Picture Wall outside the Auditorium, it took us quite some time before finding it. Quite amusing. Haha

 

That was Kenneth as a sports official at Sport Day or something, think he was in upper sec already. The one on the right is me during Sec 1 Orientation! Haha. Look damn spastic la. Come to think of it the thick black spectacles reminds me of BMT.  



Weejuay spotted this picture and insisted that it was Naoto. Kenneth and I disagreed. YANQING! What do you think?

Went with Weejuay to collect the Standard Charted marathon goodie bag in the afternoon at Suntec. The collection was really fast and there was no queue at all. The things received was alittle disappointing though, just a singlet, a pack of spaghetti(?!?), a small pack of deep heat rub, a couple of Berocca tablet and the gym bag itself. Full marathon runner will get a finisher tee if the finish the race. With the amount it cost to register, I really expected much more. 

Went to the Esplanade after the collection at around sunset. The Esplanade library is a rather good place to chill! The view is so good and I just love the bay. Too bad there was so many construction going on for the IR and outdoor bay performance area and it was quite an eyesore.

Check these out.

The pictures on the left were taken at Ikea and it is actually a overturned basket! I really though it reminded me of the Esplanade and took some pictures. Since I was at the Esplanade, I decided to take more pictures to compare the two. Looks really similar don't you think!